Mythology dark sides

My daughter is taking a world mythology class. Yesterday she was in tears over having to read raunchy Native American mythology stories about graphic sexual violence. I find nothing amusing about perpetuating the idea that appreciation of Native American cultures includes acceptance of such horrible behavior, especially since "Native or Indigenous children are 7 times more likely that other children to be subjected to criminal physical abuse, sexual abuse, neglect, or a combination of all of these" (https://www.ncacia.org/post/the-overlooked-epidemic-child-abuse-in-indigenous-and-native-american-populations).

The stories that are used to set forth the ideals, or lack thereof, of a culture are powerful. 

For example, some can take a verse in Genesis to mean that God will let them have influence over sin itself if they walk the path of "Perdition," as did Cain, the first murderer:

And the Lord said unto Cain, Why art thou wroth? and why is thy countenance fallen? If thou doest well, shalt thou not be accepted? and if thou doest not well, sin lieth at the door. And unto thee shall be his desire, and thou shalt rule over him.

Genesis 4:6-7.

"Unto thee shall be his desire, and thou shalt rule over him." Say what? The devil/sin will want to please people if they follow him? He's represented in the Bible as being selfish. That makes no sense.

Joseph Smith, Jr. was inspired to write that passage as follows:

And the Lord said unto Cain: Why art thou wroth? Why is thy countenance fallen? If thou doest well, thou shalt be accepted. And if thou doest not well, sin lieth at the door, and Satan desireth to have thee; and except thou shalt hearken unto my commandments, I will deliver thee up, and it shall be unto thee according to his desire. And thou shalt rule over him;

"It shall be unto thee according to his desire." Now that makes sense. This second passage puts people on notice that the devil/sin aims to accomplish his/its own purposes, not the wishes of those who give in to him/it.

See how a little difference in a founding story of mythological import can mean the difference between thinking the devil is going to try to please a person versus being warned that the devil is going to exploit that person? They are basically opposite beliefs and will take us down different roads behaviorally.

We should always be ready to examine the power of myths in our lives and cultures. Failure to examine them only makes dysfunctional outcomes persist longer.

Artificial intelligence software can cause a loss of faith in LDS media content creators

When looking closely at my paper copy of the 1980s LDS triple combination index, I discovered something in the entry for "Book of Commandments" (the original name of the Doctrine & Covenants). It has the following reference:

67:7 the Lord counsels to study B. of C.

But that's not what verse 67:7 says. Here is that verse and the surrounding ones:

5 Your eyes have been upon my servant Joseph Smith, Jun., and his language you have known, and his imperfections you have known; and you have sought in your hearts knowledge that you might express beyond his language; this you also know.

6 Now, seek ye out of the Book of Commandments, even the least that is among them, and appoint him that is the most wise among you;

7 Or, if there be any among you that shall make one like unto it, then ye are justified in saying that ye do not know that they are true;

8 But if ye cannot make one like unto it, ye are under condemnation if ye do not bear record that they are true.

9 For ye know that there is no unrighteousness in them, and that which is righteous cometh down from above, from the Father of lights.

Why is there a printer or publisher error pointing directly at this verse? I think it's because the publishing field has likely had access to content creation software since the 1980s, software that could duplicate specific writing styles the way any child can these days with ChatGTP. Because some publishers could produce writing that sounded like the Doctrine & Covenants, they could feel justified in not believing the very scriptures they were printing.

If I am correct, that would explain a lot of the published material coming out of Utah these days. Shallow gospel interpretations that constantly push a myth of "prophetic infallibility" on us have become the norm, when The Book of Mormon itself clearly teaches that church leaders don't always know about bad things going on in the world and even in the LDS Church (see Mosiah 26:9, where Alma, the prophet of the Nephite church didn't know about iniquity in the church and had to be told of it). It appears some nonbelievers in Church media services don't want us to question anything they say as they pretend to be faithful enough to fit in in Salt Lake City.

[Update 2/16/2025: I found another significant-looking typo in the triple combination index. This one points to a KGB connection to supposed signs and poisons in use by super-secretive groups within the LDS Church. I know, incredible, right? But keep in mind that the index was put together in the early 1980s when the USA and the USSR were pointing nuclear missiles at each other and relying on the idea of "mutually assured destruction" to keep the other side from hitting the launch buttons. A little messing with a staunchly anti-Communist, pro-military church (especially one whose adherents avoid most kinds of substance abuse) is hardly something the Soviets would have been ethically above doing.

I'll lay out the details:

1) The index entry for "refrain" erroneously indicates that Alma the Elder ("Alma1") lectured his son Corianton; it should have said Alma the Younger ("Alma2"), the actual father of Corianton.

2) Double-cancellation on the index entry for Alma1 (including the "1" as the start of the references and not considering it to be part of the entry title) gives the following string of letters and numbers: z0jwcyghpr2945ond. Dividing the numbers by 26 and using the remainders to get the corresponding letters of the alphabet, I get zzjwcyghprgond; using the doubled letter correspondence trick, that gives mjwcyghprgond. 

From the index entry title, "Alma", I do doubles-cancellation and get "LM" to indicate which cipher to use. Applying the "LM" cipher to mjwcyghprgond, I get lobvzrqigrjku. Combining the two strings of letters and removing the ones that form words (joke, gap, argon, and lobe), I am left with mydvzrqigrjku.

Application of the v trick (start at the v and move to the front and back sides) gives dzyrmqigrjku.

Then, application of the z trick (zigzag from the ends in towards the z) gives dukjrgiqmry. Turn it upside-down to get pnk(rj)gibwjl. (The rj is left out as it tells us just that this clue is upside-down. Y upside down is the Greek letter lambda, or "l".) Sounding this out, we can read "pen KGB wjl."

Three-letter ciphers are something I recently started looking at. They can be made by imitating the shape of a slide rule. A cipher based on wjl looks like this:

A   B   C   D    E    F    G    H     I     J     K

                       Q    P    O    N    M   L

                       R    S     T    U     V   W    X    Y    Z

Isn't that cool looking?

Going back and applying this cipher to lobvzrqigrjku, I get wj-tg-b-im-z-eq-re-mv-ot-eq-lw-k-hn. Removing the letters that form words (ream, vote, and cane), I am left with wjtgbimzeqqlw. 

Double q is a d, so I now have wjtgbimzedlw.

Doing the z trick starting from the left side gives me wwjltdgebim, which (because ww=j and jj=w) is wltdgebim; turned upside-down, it reads wiqd(bp)tlm; leaving out the bp as an indicator that this clue should be turned upside-down, we get a string that appears to say "wicked teal M," which appears to be a cryptic clue linking naughty Masons in the LDS church to the color teal.

Doing the z trick to wjtgbimzedlw from the right side, I get wwljdtegbim, which is jljdtegbim. Turning it upside-down, I get w-iq-b-d-t-prlr. "W" frequently shows up in these kind of possible clues as an indication of a poison or toxin, so this clue can be read as "toxic to intelligence is the tea parlor." While a missionary in Poland in the mid 1990s, I saw the height and health differences between young men raised drinking lots of tea in Poland and LDS young men raised avoiding tea in the USA. I don't pretend to know whether the American boys were also more intelligent, but they were obviously much taller and healthier than their Polish counterparts. A KGB audience could easily believe that there was also an intelligence-damage connection with tea here.

Which came first? The teal and tea clues were intentionally inserted? Or, what I consider more probable, a printer inserted a call out by/to different subgroups in the KGB/CIA to get their attention and then some people who know what kinds of messages printers can send via typos and moderately basic ciphers spent a couple of decades "fulfilling" the "clues"? Communists know all about the need for patience and "long marches" through institutions they want to gut and destroy from the inside out.

A problem with secret messages is that they can be made to appear where they were not originally intended and the audiences who think they are "in on it" won't know they are being fooled because...secrets!]

"Mind reading" can be done by technology you are wearing and carrying around

There's a whole field called neuromarketing that focuses on neural processes and emotions, such as fear, anger, happiness, and sadness. The purpose? To sell you items! And to convince you to do/believe/think in a variety of desired ways: agitation, fervor, complacency, etc. Market research has come a long way from relying on focus groups and telephone surveys.

The neural-investigation devices used in scientists' studies are quite small and wearable these days. Think cellphone- and smartwatch- small. They need to be able to measure blood oxygenation, which is cheaply done. Nowadays, one can buy an oximeter for under $8 on Amazon, including shipping.

Have you ever wondered how Facebook gets you to keep scrolling and knows what algorithms to deploy on you to keep you engaged? Your cellphone camera(s) can track your eye movement, which indicates what you are interested in.

The neuromarketing technology has gotten so good that it can read your unconscious preferences. For example, it can predict what people will do with respect to stock transactions even before people have consciously come to a decision.

This is impressive, world-altering technology, and we too often are oblivious that is available to marketers and influence-sellers. There is a reason that data analysts are so highly paid. There is a lot of data out there to analyze.

Here are some studies to back up the above claims:

1) Cherubino P, Martinez-Levy AC, Caratù M, Cartocci G, Di Flumeri G, Modica E, Rossi D, Mancini M, Trettel A. Consumer Behaviour through the Eyes of Neurophysiological Measures: State-of-the-Art and Future Trends. Comput Intell Neurosci. 2019 Sep 18;2019:1976847. doi: 10.1155/2019/1976847. PMID: 31641346; PMCID: PMC6766676. Online at https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC6766676/

[F]irstly, we will describe the historical development of neuromarketing and its main applications in assessing the sensory perceptions of some marketing and advertising stimuli. Then, we will describe the main neuroscientific tools available for such kind of investigations (e.g., measuring the cerebral electrical or hemodynamic activity, the eye movements, and the psychometric responses). Also, this review will present different brain measurement techniques, along with their pros and cons, and the main cerebral indexes linked to the specific mental states of interest (used in most of the neuromarketing research). Such indexes have been supported by adequate validations from the scientific community and are largely employed in neuromarketing research. 

2) Rawnaque FS, Rahman KM, Anwar SF, Vaidyanathan R, Chau T, Sarker F, Mamun KAA. Technological advancements and opportunities in Neuromarketing: a systematic review. Brain Inform. 2020 Sep 21;7(1):10. doi: 10.1186/s40708-020-00109-x. PMID: 32955675; PMCID: PMC7505913. Online at https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/32955675/

Physiological response measuring techniques such as eye tracking, skin conductance recording, heart rate monitoring, and facial mapping have also been found in these empirical studies exclusively or in parallel with brain recordings. 

3) Rigby D, Vass C, Payne K. Opening the 'Black Box': An Overview of Methods to Investigate the Decision-Making Process in Choice-Based Surveys. Patient. 2020 Feb;13(1):31-41. doi: 10.1007/s40271-019-00385-8. PMID: 31486021. Online at https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/31486021/

A variety of methods of pre-choice process analysis have been developed to investigate how and why people make their decisions in such experiments and surveys. These techniques have been developed to investigate how people acquire and process information and make choices. These techniques offer the potential to test and improve theories of choice and/or associated empirical models. This paper provides an overview of such methods, with the focus on their use in stated choice-based healthcare studies. The methods reviewed are eye tracking, mouse tracing, brain imaging, deliberation time analysis and think aloud. For each method, we summarise the rationale, implementation, type of results generated and associated challenges, along with a discussion of possible future developments.

4) Colomer Granero A, Fuentes-Hurtado F, Naranjo Ornedo V, Guixeres Provinciale J, Ausín JM, Alcañiz Raya M. A Comparison of Physiological Signal Analysis Techniques and Classifiers for Automatic Emotional Evaluation of Audiovisual Contents. Front Comput Neurosci. 2016 Jul 15;10:74. doi: 10.3389/fncom.2016.00074. PMID: 27471462; PMCID: PMC4945646. Online at https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC4945646/

Estimation of emotional states is a powerful tool in the marketing field. Efficient monitoring of human emotional states may provide important and useful information for marketing purposes (Frantzidis et al., 2010a). Such monitoring could follow either subjective or objective methods. Subjective methods (psychology-oriented approach) are based on qualitative behavior assessment or by means of questionnaires and interviews, whilst objective methods (neuropsychology-oriented approach) consist on monitoring and analyzing the subject biosignals (Frantzidis et al., 2010a).

It is now recognized that making use of standard marketing techniques, such as depth interviews or focus groups, in which customers are exposed to the product in advance of its massive launch or afterwards, provides biased answers due to the respondents cognitive processes activating during the interview and by the influence that the interviewer may have on their recalls (Vecchiato et al., 2014). Furthermore, people are not able to (or might not want) fully express their preferences when they are explicitly asked (Vecchiato et al., 2011a). Therefore, marketing researchers prefer to complement traditional methods with the use of biosignals.

To follow the objective approach, different features of either positive or negative emotions can be extracted from physiological signals, such as electrocardiography (ECG), electroencephalography (EEG), galvanic skin response (GSR) or the breathing response (Frantzidis et al., 2010a). This techniques allow to assess human emotions in terms of it is able to reveal information that is unobtainable employing traditional methods (Vecchiato et al., 2014).

Electroencephalography and the magnetoencephalography (MEG) allow to record on a millisecond basis the brain activity during the exposition to relevant marketing stimuli. However, such imaging brain techniques present one difficulty: the recorded cerebral activity is mainly generated on the cortical structures of the brain. It is almost impossible to acquire the electromagnetic activity yield by deep structures which are often associated with the generation of emotional processing in humans with EEG or MEG sensors. To overcome this problem, high-resolution EEG technology has been developed to enhance the poor spatial information content on the EEG activity. With this technology, brain activity can be detected with a spatial resolution of a squared centimeter on a milliseconds basis, but only in the cerebral cortex.

Furthermore, autonomic activity such as Heart Rate (HR) and Galvanic Skin Response (GSR) are also able to assess the internal emotional state of the subject (Christoforou et al., 2015; Ohme et al., 2011). GSR activity is actually a sensitive and convenient way of measuring indexing changes in sympathetic arousal associated with emotion, cognition and attention (Critchley, 2002). Lang et al. (1993) discovered that the mean value of GSR is related to the level of arousal. Blood pressure and Heart Rate Variability (HRV) also correlate with emotions, since stress may increase blood pressure. Pleasantness of stimuli can increase peak heart rate response, and HRV decreases with fear, sadness and happiness (Soleymani et al., 2008). Respiration has proven to be an adequate emotional indicator. It is possible to distinguish relaxation (slow respiration) and anger or fear (irregular rhythm, quick variations and cessation of respiration). It is possible as well to detect laughing because it introduces high-frequency fluctuations to the HRV signal (Appelhans and Luecken, 2006).

5) Stallen M, Borg N, Knutson B. Brain Activity Foreshadows Stock Price Dynamics. J Neurosci. 2021 Apr 7;41(14):3266-3274. doi: 10.1523/JNEUROSCI.1727-20.2021. Epub 2021 Mar 8. PMID: 33685944; PMCID: PMC8026346. Online at https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC8026346/

Many try but fail to consistently forecast changes in stock prices. New evidence, however, suggests that anticipatory affective brain activity may not only predict individual choice, but also may forecast aggregate choice. Assuming that stock prices index collective choice, we tested whether brain activity sampled during the assessment of stock prices could forecast subsequent changes in the prices of those stocks. In two neuroimaging experiments, a combination of previous stock price movements and brain activity in a region implicated in processing uncertainty and arousal forecast next-day stock price changes—even when behavior did not. These findings challenge traditional assumptions of market efficiency by implying that neuroimaging data might reveal “hidden information” capable of foreshadowing stock price dynamics.

6) Çakar T, Filiz G. Unraveling neural pathways of political engagement: bridging neuromarketing and political science for understanding voter behavior and political leader perception. Front Hum Neurosci. 2023 Dec 21;17:1293173. doi: 10.3389/fnhum.2023.1293173. PMID: 38188505; PMCID: PMC10771297. Online at https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC10771297/

The present investigation used a near-infrared spectroscopy (NIRS) system as primary data collection instrument. The NIRS system utilized in this study is produced by fNIR Devices, model 11001 and is rooted in the research development units of Drexel University (Philadelphia, PA, USA) (Ayaz, 2010). The system consists of three elements: a flexible sensor with 16 optodes (8 light sources and 8 detectors) arranged in a 4 × 4 grid, and which is securely fixed to the participant’s head; the control box with electronic components and analog-to-digital converters; and the system computer, which runs the COBI Studio software and facilitates real-time data monitoring and recording. The sensor, equipped with four distinct light sources, detects oxygenation levels through ten detectors while concurrently recording data streams across sixteen distinct channels (Ayaz et al., 2011). Notably, the sensor is designed so that the light source and the detector are approximately 2.5 centimeters apart, thereby enabling measurements from depths of approximately 1.25 centimeters. This fNIRS system uses two wavelengths (760 nm and 830 nm) to measure the concentration of oxygenated hemoglobin (HbO2) and deoxygenated hemoglobin (Hb) in the blood. Functionally, the system boasts a data acquisition frequency of 2 samples per second (2 Hz) and is capable of measuring neural activity within the Brodmann areas BA9, BA10, BA44, and BA45 (Ayaz et al., 2011).

The non-invasive and portable nature of the optical brain imaging system is instrumental to its effectiveness. 

[Update 2/12/2025: Not only can it "read" our minds, our portable technology can also be used to affect our mental states. Smart phones now usually come with the capability of generating infrared light, which can be used to improve mood and reduce inflammation:

Giménez MC, Luxwolda M, Van Stipriaan EG, Bollen PP, Hoekman RL, Koopmans MA, Arany PR, Krames MR, Berends AC, Hut RA, Gordijn MCM. Effects of Near-Infrared Light on Well-Being and Health in Human Subjects with Mild Sleep-Related Complaints: A Double-Blind, Randomized, Placebo-Controlled Study. Biology (Basel). 2022 Dec 29;12(1):60. doi: 10.3390/biology12010060. PMID: 36671752; PMCID: PMC9855677. Online at https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC9855677/

Therapeutic exposure to doses of red and NIR, known as photobiomodulation (PBM), has been effective for a broad range of conditions. In a double-blind, randomized, placebo-controlled study, we aimed to assess the effects of a PBM home set-up on various aspects of well-being, health, sleep, and circadian rhythms in healthy human subjects with mild sleep complaints. The effects of three NIR light (850 nm) doses (1, 4, or 6.5 J·cm−2) were examined against the placebo. Exposure was presented five days per week between 9:30 am and 12:30 pm for four consecutive weeks. The study was conducted in both summer and winter to include seasonal variation. The results showed PBM treatment only at 6.5 J·cm−2 to have consistent positive benefits on well-being and health, specifically improving mood, reducing drowsiness, reducing IFN-γ, and resting heart rate. This was only observed in winter. 

I think that housing people in windowless buildings is a very bad idea, per this study. We need some of this kind of light.]

[Update 2/13/2025: I think the most secretive, well-funded agencies have been working on mind reading capabilities for decades. Last fall, Popular Mechanics reported the military is going to develop mind reading helmets for aircraft pilots, ones that are non-invasive (i.e., not relying on brain implants) and so precise that the military intends to have the pilots use the mind reading capabilites for launching weapons. You don't rely on technology to launch weapons until you're sure it works and works extraordinarily well! Here's a link to the Popular Mechanics story:

https://www.popularmechanics.com/military/a62719626/darpa-n3-ai-helmet/

If mind reading technology is being used on us civilians these days, I think DARPA and other such agencies are obligated under the Constitution, as constructed and understood to be about providing for the common defense, to tell us about it, no matter how many non-disclosure agreements they initially signed back when our society wasn't being run into the ground by unproductive uses of new technologies.]

[Update 2/16/2025: As I look at news headlines, I'm struck with the realization that they make a lot more sense if one hypothesizes that some people are using advanced technology to manipulate politicians and prominent business/entertainment people. Sort of a Sim-City game, but real. Is it plausible?]

[Update 2/24/2025: Here's more to read about non-invasive mind reading tech. https://gizmodo.com/the-next-generation-of-brainwave-control-helmets-looks-5484416. The article is already four years old.

So what about technology that goes the other way? Instead of merely observing, it  influences, massages, and even induces brainwaves in a way targeted to create, amplify, or dampen a person's emotions? It looks like that actually can be done non-invasively now.

Despite many studies showing abnormal brain rhythms in multiple diseases, limited means to target deep brain regions noninvasively has restricted the therapeutic potential of driving brain rhythms. Accordingly, we developed a noninvasive millisecond precise sensory stimulation to drive brain rhythms. Here, we introduce for the first time newly developed open-source software and instructions for building, testing, debugging, and using BrainWAVE (Brain Wide-spectrum Audio/Visual Exposure) stimulation. We demonstrate BrainWAVE stimulation across multiple species and different experimental settings. 

Attokaren MK, Jeong N, Blanpain L, Paulson AL, Garza KM, Borron B, Walelign M, Willie J, Singer AC. BrainWAVE: A Flexible Method for Noninvasive Stimulation of Brain Rhythms across Species. eNeuro. 2023 Feb 24;10(2):ENEURO.0257-22.2022. doi: 10.1523/ENEURO.0257-22.2022. PMID: 36754625; PMCID: PMC9979148. Online at https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC9979148/

Here's a patent on tech that remotely changes brain electrical activity that was filed back in 1975: 

Apparatus for and method of sensing brain waves at a position remote from a subject whereby electromagnetic signals of different frequencies are simultaneously transmitted to the brain of the subject in which the signals interfere with one another to yield a waveform which is modulated by the subject's brain waves. The interference waveform which is representative of the brain wave activity is re-transmitted by the brain to a receiver where it is demodulated and amplified. The demodulated waveform is then displayed for visual viewing and routed to a computer for further processing and analysis. The demodulated waveform also can be used to produce a compensating signal which is transmitted back to the brain to effect a desired change in electrical activity therein.

https://patents.google.com/patent/US3951134A/en

Why would anyone blithely stare at screeens for hours or wear headphones once they find out brain activity-altering technology exists? And that it has existed since at least 1975! Oh, almost nobody knows. 

If the average person even considers the possibility of mind control being done by their wearable tech, they are going to think it's just science fiction. Meanwhile, the people who know it has become scientific fact are either intentionally keeping it out of public view for their own purposes or are bound by confidentiality agreements, as is routine in research and government jobs.]

[Update 3/21/2025: Here's a report of achieving mind control (or at least "mind nudging"):

In summary, we investigated whether ultrasound, a pressure wave applied remotely, can modulate brain activity to an extent of producing notable effects on forming decisions. We found that brief, low-intensity ultrasonic pulses remotely delivered into oculomotor circuits of nonhuman primates markedly influence perceptual decisions. The presence and polarity of the effect were controllable by a specific target region. This result takes us a step closer to being able to modulate, noninvasively and reversibly, neuronal activity in specific brain circuits. This could open the way to future systematic studies of brain function in humans and to targeted personalized treatments of brain disorders.

Kubanek J, Brown J, Ye P, Pauly KB, Moore T, Newsome W. Remote, brain region-specific control of choice behavior with ultrasonic waves. Sci Adv. 2020 May 20;6(21):eaaz4193. doi: 10.1126/sciadv.aaz4193. PMID: 32671207; PMCID: PMC7314556. Online at https://www.science.org/doi/10.1126/sciadv.aaz4193]

[Update 3/31/2025: If technology has gotten to the point where it can manipulate the brain from outside of the skull, what else can be done remotely? Muscle relaxation seems likely, due to the electrical impulses that are involved in muscle contraction and relaxation. Such a use has potential for great good and great harm. The heart is a muscle, a really important one. 

Remotely affecting someone's heart's electrical activity could either fix heart rhythm issues or cause them. High tech "invisible" assassinations, anyone?...Talk about a technology that would almost certainly be kept secret by government agencies via non-disclosure agreements.... I think it already exists. 

I saw a TED video where one person's nerve impulses were detected and used to move someone else's arm; while that video from years ago relied on wires and electrodes connecting the people to computers (and through computers to each other), they were not implanted inside the participants' bodies and so I think the process could be done wirelessly, too. People are far too casual about the mini-computers (for example, smart watches, headphones, and cellphones) they compulsively keep on or right next to their bodies. Those personal computing devices transmit and/or receive all kinds of data and instructions wirelessly.]

Fenugreek, paranoia, and a hidden cure

Five years ago, life got weird. Before 2020, I was just a homeschool mom, researching and writing about nutrition insights in my spare time.

I found myself really hyper after I started to eat toasted fenugreek seeds. 

I got a lot of robo-phone calls trying to sell me extended warranties. Instapundit, a blog I had followed for a decade, started to have comments that appeared to refer to things going on in my life. 

Then, as the world watched COVID advance and close everything down, I blogged and posted repeatedly on social media about glucosamine and its possible role in helping heal from respiratory illnesses before they progress to pneumonia.

The robo-phone calls kept coming, and after the calls, I suffered from paranoia episodes. Some were very frightening. Finally, I checked myself into mental health in-patient care. After more than a week, I was able to come home. I had been prescribed Seroquel, which I took for a few days. But then insidious thoughts of suicide started to float around in my mind. Because I knew that suicidal thoughts are a common side effect of Seroquel and similar pharmaceuticals, I stopped taking the Seroquel.

I continued to float around in a semi-paranoid but functional-enough state while the USA shut down for COVID. My spouse worked from home, I homeschooled (like everyone else in the country, but it was basically our usual routine), and I cried and dealt with anxiety-causing delusions on my own time when the rest of my family was occupied with other things.

Then it was Passover time. We celebrated it as a cultural, educational event, and to be more authentic, we included foods imported from Israel. My cry of "Hosanna!" ("God save us!") was one of the most devout things I've ever said at the dinner table.

Two hours after we ate our Passover meal, the delusions I'd been suffering quietly started to lift. I was able to talk to my husband about what was going on, and the next morning when I woke up, the paranoia was gone. For the first time in two months, I wasn't paranoid.

Over the next seven months, I was able to narrow down the trigger for my sudden, non-pharmaceutical release from paranoid delusions. It was the matzoh crackers--kosher but not certified for a Passover dinner--imported from Israel.

Fenugreek is common in the middle East and south Asia. I think it's likely that some people in the middle East have known and even weaponized toasted fenugreek's ability to mess with mental states. Perhaps it explains the two phases of life of the founder of Islam, for those who have studied the difference between his Mecca and Medina stages. I similarly think that some people have figured out how to counteract fenugreek's potential harmfulness and that I benefitted from their knowledge when I ate Israeli matzoh crackers. I now avoid all maple flavoring (it can be made by boiling fenugreek seeds) and fenugreek, and I haven't had a recurrence of the paranoia I experienced in 2020.